Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Forever Loubnan Al-Moukaddas

These are excerpts of what I wrote last year in August of 2005 when I was back in Lebanon. Call it nostalgia mixed with sorrow, mixed with hints of the 2006 summer that was to come....I have nothing new to write and would definitely at the moment defer to how I felt and thought back in the days. My heart is filled with fear and pain for my beloved Loubnan.

Lebanon, the small, beautiful country, the larger-than-life country, is too good to be true sometimes. Lebanon is beautiful like a dream. I've talked to many and funnilly enough, many are optimistic, and many are not. Many have bought in to the national reconciliation mantra, and many have become ultra-sectarian, it is but confusing to say which side is winning!

When you don't read the newspapers, Lebanon is the way it is...just Lebanon, the Lebanon we all love. But just when you read the news, it is inevitable to be disturbed. The dark forces in our country are slowly getting emboldened. I hope we can stand in their way. Can we?

Lebanon is weak, a sick-man, susceptible to all the viruses one can think of. Are we able to give it an immunization shot once and for all? I believe, if we can work together. We'll wait and see. But I'll remind myself everyday, that now in order to understand what will happen to our country, we have to keep up with the news around us. So let's keep our eyes open.

Less than 24 hours before I leave this beloved country, Lebanon. I must say that I have decided--this is the place I want to be my home, this is where I want to live. No romanticism, no's reality and it becomes clearer the older I get....

Lebanon--it's the fertile ground for change, for opportunities. We should all start planning the return. We should! No doubt! It would be a shame to leave it behind, when it is so thirsty for our minds, for our endless energy, and optimism...I can smell the fresh scent of the Pine Tree from the hills of Bhamdoun-El-Mhatta.

Forever, Loubnan Al-Moukaddas.

"Nobody knows how many rebellions, besides political rebellions, ferment in the masses of life which people earth."


Lirun said...

hey doha

i think we all vaue a sense of home.. i personally have had the option to settle inmany much more peaceful places in the world.. but nothing replaces a sense of home..

i wish that your home be restored soon and the summer that should have been that of 2006 pale in contrast to the splendour of what comes..


Richard said...

Heartbreaking that the place you longed to call home has become a vale of pain & rubble. May those days of last summer return some time in the near future. May Lebanon be reborn in peace.

Pasdutout said...
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Pasdutout said...

It is posts like these that make this blog worth Reading.

Thank you Doha, for reminding of the human faces beneath the casualty statistics.

abou al jamejem said...

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Tichondrius1 said...

I feel people like you in lebanon have become victims of the dark forces you refer to, just as much as the israelis are victims (or at least targets) of these dark forces. Just today it was revealed that Iranian soldiers ares fighting amongst Hizballah ranks - showing even more clearly whose interests these dark forces serve. It's amazing that many lebanese people still support those dark forces.....


"Ibn Nagrela, Nagrela, and Abu Nagrela: a dynasty of morons"

Pasdutout said...

Ran into this item:

I was wonderting what people think of this?

Lirun said...


its amazing how many lebanese people dont support those dark forces..

we need to speak louder

dany said...


Even more than the nostalgic feelings of the Lebanese expatriates who see the destruction of their "holiday place", (dont misunderstand me: I have no doubt that they also shed genuine tears for their homeland and family's current nation), one should express the feeling of an entire generation of Lebanese who have elected to stay or return to Lebanon, and have, after many hesitations and after having patiently and cautiously tested the waters for year, decided to finally invest their money and future on the promise of a country reborn. These have had their memories nostalgically blurred, but also their future and dreams shattered. It is this trauma that will be so very hard to heal ! a french proverb says "a cat which has been burned by boiling water, fears cold water".
For years, we are going to have a risk-averse generation, which is incompatible with the entreprenurial spirit that has, so far, driven Lebanon and allowed it to rise up from the ashes (to use an expression which has been really worn-out in Lebanon).
If we lose our entrepreneurs, we will have to rely on foreign aid and the likes. Previous experience, in Africa for example, has clearly shown that this in no way is enough to rebuild a country.
I hope I will be more positive in the months to come.

Lirun said...


i believe in you.. its probably not worth all that much in real terms but i will encourage you..

coming from somone who has been burned by "boiling water" many many times - i know that it is possible to swim again.. and sail.. and paddle and surf.. with full glory and pride..

you've done it once - and you shall do it again - only this time it will be better and stronger..

you are not africa - you are lebanon

dany said...


Interesting article. I agree on the general ideas expressed, but have a few remarks:
1) Lebanon is indeed a victim, and that's no joke ! The distiction that the article fails to make is between the Lebanese government and the people of Lebanon. As far as I'm concerned, "Lebanon" means the people of Lebanon, not the leaders of Lebanon. At least that's what it means when you're talking about victims and damage, not about declarations and agreements. The fact that the people has been misled (and lied to) to elect people who were either incompetent or scheming, does not make Lebanon less of a victim. Even if some of their leaders knew some things, the people DID NOT KNOW. But they still had to pay the price, not the leaders, the people. That's what makes them victims. When you're conned, you're a victim. Electing the wrong people is not a Lebanese monopoly unfortunately. "election promise" is another way to describe a lie, all around the word !

2) There is naturally a PR war going on, and it is normal that each side tries to exaggerate the destructions. When an inexperienced viewer watches CNN, they have the impression that the north of Israel is demolished and deserted. Just think...3000 missiles ! That's huge! To us lebanese (and also to many Israelies) who have been through many wars and destructions, we can see that the holes in the buildings can be repaired in days, and the shattered glass in hours (that is ABSOLUTELY NOT to say that i trivialize the damages: you can't fix a car that has burned, and you certainly cannot bring back the dead !). But I guess that this disinformation is fair in war ! I'm just don't understand why it surprises the writer of this article.
3) It is a gross misrepresentation to say that 95% of Beirut lives better than a fortnight ago. 100% of the Lebanese are more miserable than 3 weeks ago ! I was in a crowded restaurant yesterday evening outside Beirut. There was music playing. I was not crying. I may have been smiling and appeared relaxed. But I can assure you that I was NOT feeling better that 3 weeks ago. The same probably goes for all the rest of the patrons.
4) Most of us are certainly not sorry for HA's ass being kicked, but few of us can fond words of thanks for Israel. Sorry Isreali bloggers, but that's the way it is. If the cops are chasing a thief who has creeped into your house, and they destroy half of your house during the chase, your find it hard to thank the cops even if you think that the thief should have not come into your house and ultimately the destruction is his fault. You just wish the cops could have been a little more careful when running through the living room, knowing that the thug was hiding in the backyard.
5) I wish the writer would have been a little more discerning when justifying all Israeli hits as strikes against terrorist hideouts or terrorist infrastructures. I am fully aware that HA is using civilians as shields, hoping the attacted fire will provoque negative reactions in Israel and the West. But even Israelis agree that some bombings are unnecessary and unproductive. Hitting a bridge when an adjascent road clearly by-passing it is left intact, cannot objectively been called "cutting a supply route". It is always possible to justify an attack: telephone lines and electricity are also used by Hezbollahis, but that does not mean that Israel would be right in destroying all the telephone and electrical infrastructure of the country (which is probably why it is not doing it)
6) I know enough about the military to say that perfect surgical strikes are a fantasy. In combat, the level of stress increases the possibility of errors, and "suspect" target are often hit to avoid taking chances. I am sure that, during a training exercise, or in a simulator, many of the targets hit would have been spared (like the hole-digging truck hit in Achrafieh which was thought to be a missile laucher)

dany said...

Thanks Lirun,

Just going through a rough time now. I had some major chages planned at work for September.
I just didn't know the chages would be so major !!!
A you say, I guess we're doomed to start again. Groundhog Day !

Lirun said...

you're welcome dany - wishing you and your children as well as those on my side better and brighter days

Omer (israeli) said...

I understand what you say completly. And if you ask me we are both victims. The rockets on israels north, brought many, to the silly and useless idea of mass invation.
Unfortunatly there is no agreement yet. And Olmert is inexperianced militiry (and a moron, belive me, i lived in jerusalem when he was a mayor).
While i do belive war agianst HEZ is justified, i don't belive it should be at the expense of so many civilians lives. But in end of the day, there are no winners, that usally is the case with wars.

Israel did alot of damage and mistakes. Yet HEZ has responsibility too: 1. They DO use civilian infrastructure to hide arms and shoot rockets. this doesn't mean i think that israel has no responsibility for wrong targeting. 2. HEZ could stop the war today by releasing the 2 soldiers and letting a robust peace force to go into south lebanon.
Today HEZ killed 2 people, arab-israelis, a mother and her daughter. So even the innocent arab-israelis who are against the war pay the price.
Thats as stupid as it gets. Its not "Fair", but thats the thing. I don't want to sound incensitive. But time for crying is over, the world isn't "Fair". I haven't done a dam thing to anyone yet so many people wish me dead. I lived in jerusalem many years, I've seen the horors of exploding buses. I was 5 minutes close to being between the dead at least 2 times. But i will not sit and cry. I'm part of the Isaeli left, I belive the 67 border is the first step. Yet these people try ro kill me, agian and again. Yep, it ain't "Fair".

dror said...

a coalition of Israel bogglers against the war:
(in Hebrew)

Also there is "mad max" which is quite funny (in Hebrew again, sorry)

today (10/8) there will be demonstration against the war- in front of the "defense" department in tel aviv at 1800, of the "ziones" left movements

Pasdutout said...

To Dany,

Thanks for the long and insightful response.

Stay safe.


dany said...

I just heard the news about leaflets warning of attacks on Chiah etc..
It seems that this has now stirred some worries in Shiite villages north of Beirut (around Jdeideh and Byblos).
I hope that Israel will have the wisdom to convey the message that their ennemy is HA, not the Shi'a. That would help in driving a wedge (however small) between HA and some of their Shi'ite environment.
Most of all, it would show Israel as taking sides in the "unadmitted" sunii-shi'a struggle for influence. That would play right in the hand of Nasrallah and against Siniora

Omer (israeli) said...

Why Chiah, Do you know whats there?

dany said...

sorry i meant: israel as NOT taking sides...

dany said...

Chiah, a shiite area, is the outskirt of the Southern Suburbs (also called in Arabic: Dahieh, a HA stronghold).
Chiah is also adjascent to the Christian area of Ain el Remmaneh.
As to what's there, I wouldn't be able to tell.

dror said...

you don't understand , what intrest "israel" most now is the gernarls wars.

i don't think they care a bit about lebanon, shi'a , HZ , israel , US , world etc .

only warrid about their seats.

how come olmert is against a lebaon army in the south? its waht israel always asked for, and now they say thay want a internatinl force. what? the sht with them. they jsut don't give a damn. they don't care about israleis or lebaones dayig, just to keep the war go on

so thay will have some "achivemnt" against HZ.

direct democracy and peace on us all.

Ergotelina said...

What about the American-Lebanese?

Are they so confused?)))

Dimitry said...


Explain to me the extreme-leftist tendency to always blame it all on their own side. Always the enemy is simply a bunch of simply reasonable fellas, jolly fine ones, really, while the government and military of their side is Absolute Evil [tm]. Is it impossible that the other side shares some of those qualities you're attributting to your government?

ColdPhusion said...

dany said:

"4) Most of us are certainly not sorry for HA's ass being kicked, but few of us can fond words of thanks for Israel. Sorry Isreali bloggers, but that's the way it is. If the cops are chasing a thief who has creeped into your house, and they destroy half of your house during the chase, your find it hard to thank the cops even if you think that the thief should have not come into your house and ultimately the destruction is his fault. You just wish the cops could have been a little more careful when running through the living room, knowing that the thug was hiding in the backyard."

dany, you are ABSOLUTLY right.

First thing: I can't stand Hizballah or their Mullah. And I want them disarmed. And I know that after this is over, we will never go back to before july 12, meaning they will never keep their arms. HOWEVER, for the moment, slowly I'm becoming enthusiastic whenever I hear that they killed Israeli soldiers, or they achieved this or that, I wanted the Israelis to be humiliated and know that they deserve that because they have no mercy whether Hizballah or anyone else, they have showed that they don't care about Lebanon as a nation that has other factions would love to have peace with them.

I consider myself an open minded person, educated, and been living in Canada for the past 8 years, I was going back to live in my country soon. I have many jewish and israeli friends, and I always thought that we should have peace with Israel. Right now, believe me, after what they have done, after destroying my country for the 7th time, and killing without mercy, I have this raging hatred against the Israelis and their stupid army and their arrogant attitude.

It will take years for me to subside my anger and hatred.

What do you have to say for that Israeli Bloggers.

Omer (israeli) said...

Its quite understandbale

Sherri said...


The anger and hatred you feel for Israel is a normal reaction and it is from that anger and hatred that Hamas and Hezbullah were born and thrive.

It is from anger and hatred that Hamas and Hexbullah chant "death to Israel and death to the United States."

They both view themselves as in a war with Israel, that is ongoing as long as Israel still holds their land (Hezbullah, with respect to Lebanon) and occupies their land (Hamas, with respect to the Palestinians).

Because they say "death to Israel" and "death to the United States" and do not operate like normal western armies, the west labels them as terrorists and tries to demonize them. I don't think this is right. They are a political group which represent populations of men, women, and children, most of the Shiite Muslims in Lebanon and the Palestinians in the West Bank and Gaza.

Hezbullah and Hamas deserve respect. Iran and Syria deserve respect. The West needs to stop this labelling of people, groups and countries, and refusing to speak to them or try to diplomatically deal with them. The present appproach only leads to endless wars. There must be a dialogue to have peace. Noone is even trying to have a dialogue here.

Dimitry said...


Leabeling people according to their actions and words is perfectly reasonable. If someone would enter your house and kill your family, you'll be quite justified in calling him a murderer, regardless of motives.

As radical as it may sound, people sometimes actually mean what they say.


As long as what dictates your actions is a rational assesment of your interests and not blind hate, I don't think it's hugely relevant. And someone who's willing to let himself and hisa loved ones be hurt just to "get back" at someone for past wounds isn't really worth dealing with, is he?

Fares said...

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